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Brain Dump

Now I don't wanna come off like a total cliche, but I'm not starting this "blog" to be read by millions and inspire. I'm mostly starting this to just be a brain dump. A journal or sorts. Or if you want to be really corny, a diary. Sometimes I just get this overwhelming feeling that I need to get things out and due to turning into a complete introvert after 30, I am seriously lacking impartial people to talk to about things as they are all family at this point. So here we are. Since a preteen, I have loved writing. I have loved reading since even before then which I'm thinking lead to my love of writing. I also have a love for typing as weird as that is. There is something satisfying about typing at a satisfactory speed with no mistakes. Weird, again. Nevertheless, this is what this is. And if you have somehow found yourself here, to which I would be completely surprised, welcome to this mind. My mind. It complicated. It can be dark and twisty (yes I am a HUGE Grey's Anatomy fan). It can also be beautiful and I have had many moments in my life that I wish I could take a screenshot of in my mind to hold onto forever. And when I say that it's not just of the location or the scene of what I was doing, it's more the feeling that I feel at that exact moment. I have had moments in which I feel so complete and so happy that those words don't even seem to describe it well enough. I also have a horrible memory. I mean baaaadddddd. My husband will often ask me if I remember someone that we met on a fly 6 years ago and I have no idea of the place he even says we were at. He on the other hand seems to remember every face and place that we experience. Wish I had that ability but I don't. So as I'm sitting here typing whatever thoughts come into my mind, I am discovering that this will serve a few different purposes. I look forward to continuing on with it, although I will not be putting myself on a schedule as that seems to be when things stop being relaxing or fun and begin being a chore that I will inevitably put off as I am a serial procrastinator and hate HAVING to do things. Wow as I am thinking about the traits described in the opening entry, I am not sounding that good ha!  Hopefully we will change that soon.  'Til then...


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